as the dreams fade and the hopes die,

as the thunder rolls and the rain pours,

as the pain rises and the screams grow,

who will be there and who will go,

i curl up in a little ball,

watching the faces on the wall,

this is my t.v,

this is my reality,

the life i truly lead,

always unseen,

i live in the shadows,

always unheard,

always unseen,

and when i emerge,

its always her,

the one thats strong,

who never lets go,

she never cries,

not even alone,

but she'll shed one tear,

when she finally loses and the innocence disappears.

a smile a kiss a cold winter smile,

a love that wont break at least for a while,

a hug a forbidden touch,

a face i miss so much,

 

 

and this is where i stop, as the drugs still run in my veins, and i hope your karma finds you, for putting me through this hell, and i hope that i dont see you anymore, and i just want to sleep, i want to run and hise and cry, to curl up in your arms, and feel safe and secure and warm, and finally sleep awhile,but how do i do that when your so far away, yet within my touch???